Late night thoughts

I think I become the most pensive during the wee hours of the night. What's been on my mind lately is him in particular. It's been a while since I've really had an interest in anyone. These past two years in college I've been finding new hobbies and activities to keep myself occupied, learn more about myself and work towards becoming a better person in general. The funny thing about love is that when you're actively searching for it, it doesn't come. But once you feel like life is up to speed and it's all jolly and good and you could care less of if you have a boyfriend or not, life presents you with someone who may be a potential significant other. The irony, ehh?

My expectations in a future significant other have changed quite a bit from pre-college after certain things happened. I can't say that I'm angry those particular things have happened because they truly opened my eyes on what traits really make a relationship and other things I should look out for before I become any further involved.

At this current stage, I'm at the point where I'm wondering if things will progress favorably, seeing as how well we have hit it off since we met. He's respectful, funny, dependable, easy to talk to and we have quite a bit in common. He seems like the type to take things slowly, and I understand that. We haven't known each other for that long, but I felt that we've let each other into our lives to the point where we might one day question that either we're becoming very good friends or may become something more than friends. There's so much happening now for the both of us and I realize that they just might turn into the reasons that can prevent a relationship from happening. It's difficult to say right now, but I've learned from past experiences to not overthink, set unrealistic expectations, and freak out over little things. Either way, I'm ready for what happens. If we only are friends, that's alright. But if we become something more, then that's even better.

Come what may.

We aren't "owed" relationships... we earn them.